Grounded
I had a dream the other night,
that I couldn't fly away.
So I tried to fight,
my deepest darkest day.
I soon began to see,
I was in a battle I couldn't win.
How could this be,
I'm just not like other men.
It was far too overwhelming,
It hit me deep inside my heart,
wishing someone to just help me,
and save me from this part.
I should have seen it coming,
for it's lasted far too long.
It had to mean something
but now my mind is gone.
I guess we'll see how the story plays,
and what to make of the end.
This nightmare lasts 70 days,
I pray I'll wake up then.
that I couldn't fly away.
So I tried to fight,
my deepest darkest day.
I soon began to see,
I was in a battle I couldn't win.
How could this be,
I'm just not like other men.
It was far too overwhelming,
It hit me deep inside my heart,
wishing someone to just help me,
and save me from this part.
I should have seen it coming,
for it's lasted far too long.
It had to mean something
but now my mind is gone.
I guess we'll see how the story plays,
and what to make of the end.
This nightmare lasts 70 days,
I pray I'll wake up then.
Recurring
Now that my time is drawing near
It seems so far away.
So I face my deepest fear
That I'll never see that day.
I know its over soon
But I haven't woke up yet.
A nightmare since mid June
That's altered my mindset.
I know now I'll never wake
Or return to my old ways.
I thought this place was supposed to make
A better ME within these days.
But all its done is hardened me.
In peoples eyes I am disgraced.
Soon I know all will see
I'll never shake this place.
Minnesota
All my life, I've dreamed to find
a place to truly rest my mind.
All it took was one friend, one simple trip.
Reality's seen it's end, and I begin to slip
into serenity, finally at rest.
Happiness and peace, I expected much less.
All I've known was lies, I thought to be truths.
So many lonely nights, I fought for my youth.
Anxiety, fear, and apprehension flood my mind.
Time to see, hear, and ease this tension to which I was blind.
Timid, I leave "home," and stumble upon
this is it, the place, where I truly belong.
An instant grace, such a sweet sound.
But from what face, noone to be found.
I've found the first, true "right" in my life.
No more pain or suffering, I feel no strife.
Waking up from this dream, not a chance.
Making up for what seemed, to be just a glance.
Life, has flown on by me, now time stands still?
Might this be how God, meant for me to feel?
And just when I thought, it couldn't get any better.
I knew I was wrong, the moment I met her.
Eyes so bright, and a smile so warm.
I let go despite, it's been a while, and my hearts been torn.
Shattered by love, so long ago.
Scattered abroad, rebuilding was slow.
Passion once more, I was able to fathom.
Emotions soar, these feelings I knew not I could have them.
A sweet song to me, she sang, one from the heart.
Is it wrong for me, to say, I knew from the start.
Time with her, is what I wanted most.
To Love, once again I was the host.
Now what more, could I possibly ask.
Yet another loop, a friensdship unmasked.
The best part about it, a bond has been strengthened.
To a new level, our friendship was taken.
Of each other we gained, a new understanding.
Tribulations and trials, it shall be withstanding.
Thanks to him, I felt what I've never known.
A since of belonging, and that I'm not alone.
It's a shame, that my time, had to end.
No other people, with whom time I'd rather spend.
I return "home," but it's not the same.
Reasons unknown, distaste and disdain.
Not me, but for whom, it this place intent.
Unmistakable, such discontent.
Now all I look foward to, is that dream so right.
Thanks to everyone, and hears to the night...
a place to truly rest my mind.
All it took was one friend, one simple trip.
Reality's seen it's end, and I begin to slip
into serenity, finally at rest.
Happiness and peace, I expected much less.
All I've known was lies, I thought to be truths.
So many lonely nights, I fought for my youth.
Anxiety, fear, and apprehension flood my mind.
Time to see, hear, and ease this tension to which I was blind.
Timid, I leave "home," and stumble upon
this is it, the place, where I truly belong.
An instant grace, such a sweet sound.
But from what face, noone to be found.
I've found the first, true "right" in my life.
No more pain or suffering, I feel no strife.
Waking up from this dream, not a chance.
Making up for what seemed, to be just a glance.
Life, has flown on by me, now time stands still?
Might this be how God, meant for me to feel?
And just when I thought, it couldn't get any better.
I knew I was wrong, the moment I met her.
Eyes so bright, and a smile so warm.
I let go despite, it's been a while, and my hearts been torn.
Shattered by love, so long ago.
Scattered abroad, rebuilding was slow.
Passion once more, I was able to fathom.
Emotions soar, these feelings I knew not I could have them.
A sweet song to me, she sang, one from the heart.
Is it wrong for me, to say, I knew from the start.
Time with her, is what I wanted most.
To Love, once again I was the host.
Now what more, could I possibly ask.
Yet another loop, a friensdship unmasked.
The best part about it, a bond has been strengthened.
To a new level, our friendship was taken.
Of each other we gained, a new understanding.
Tribulations and trials, it shall be withstanding.
Thanks to him, I felt what I've never known.
A since of belonging, and that I'm not alone.
It's a shame, that my time, had to end.
No other people, with whom time I'd rather spend.
I return "home," but it's not the same.
Reasons unknown, distaste and disdain.
Not me, but for whom, it this place intent.
Unmistakable, such discontent.
Now all I look foward to, is that dream so right.
Thanks to everyone, and hears to the night...
Lost In Time
Silent we watch the sun, come over the horizon.
Again my heart you've won, as I look into your eyes, when
the birds begin to echo their melodious joy.
The walls you slowly begin to destroy, with,
unspoken words, bring to us a quiet tranquility.
A soft stare to others, but still I see,
all my fears laid to rest, my questions are answered.
Forever give you my best, you are my tiny dancer.
So hold me close, and cherish this moment of surreality.
It is me you chose, and share with a kiss of pure sensuality.
My heart explodes, as our lips combine.
A soft wind blows, our passions untwine.
Now I am yours, and you are mine.
Your love leaves me breatheless, intoxicated in time.
Of which, in eternity, there's not even enough.
I am begging and pleading, please call my bluff.
The reason I live, all I have is you,
because, the moment I met you, all my dreams had come true.
Again my heart you've won, as I look into your eyes, when
the birds begin to echo their melodious joy.
The walls you slowly begin to destroy, with,
unspoken words, bring to us a quiet tranquility.
A soft stare to others, but still I see,
all my fears laid to rest, my questions are answered.
Forever give you my best, you are my tiny dancer.
So hold me close, and cherish this moment of surreality.
It is me you chose, and share with a kiss of pure sensuality.
My heart explodes, as our lips combine.
A soft wind blows, our passions untwine.
Now I am yours, and you are mine.
Your love leaves me breatheless, intoxicated in time.
Of which, in eternity, there's not even enough.
I am begging and pleading, please call my bluff.
The reason I live, all I have is you,
because, the moment I met you, all my dreams had come true.
Is It...
strange, that I feel comfort, from your embrace?
normal, that I long for your soft caress?
natural, to you, such enduring grace?
true, this feelings still as strong, none less?
okay, for me to tell you, what I feel?
sad though, that I can't find the words?
wrong, to pursue it, and make it real?
strange, that I feel comfort, from your embrace?
normal, that I long for your soft caress?
natural, to you, such enduring grace?
true, this feelings still as strong, none less?
okay, for me to tell you, what I feel?
sad though, that I can't find the words?
wrong, to pursue it, and make it real?
Because
You asked me why I loved you, and there's so much that I could say.
But if I am to be honest, it changes everyday.
Since the day I met you, you've brought joy into my life.
You took away all my pain, suffering, and strife.
I never thought that God would send me such a gift.
And in my heart you've sealed the ever present rift.
The feelings you instilled in me, I did not know that they exist.
I love the way you touch me, and how I get lost in your eyes.
Your beauty is a testament that you're an angel in disguise.
I feel like you were sent for me
And that you and I were meant to be.
You've been here with me for the best, and stood by me through the worst.
You've got my heart stretching at the seams, it's soon about to burst.
You mean the world to me, you are my heavens and my earth.
I will spend my life showing you your true value your true worth.
I love you in so many different ways, for all the little things.
Until my dying day my love for you will sing.
But if I am to be honest, it changes everyday.
Since the day I met you, you've brought joy into my life.
You took away all my pain, suffering, and strife.
I never thought that God would send me such a gift.
And in my heart you've sealed the ever present rift.
The feelings you instilled in me, I did not know that they exist.
I love the way you touch me, and how I get lost in your eyes.
Your beauty is a testament that you're an angel in disguise.
I feel like you were sent for me
And that you and I were meant to be.
You've been here with me for the best, and stood by me through the worst.
You've got my heart stretching at the seams, it's soon about to burst.
You mean the world to me, you are my heavens and my earth.
I will spend my life showing you your true value your true worth.
I love you in so many different ways, for all the little things.
Until my dying day my love for you will sing.
Dad
You would have been 59 today
Gone so fast I had no time to say
Everything That I needed
So I write and hope you read it
And there's no need to say
But we miss you everyday
Just like when you lived you're always watching over
Please keep your comforting hand resting on our shoulders
Gone so fast I had no time to say
Everything That I needed
So I write and hope you read it
And there's no need to say
But we miss you everyday
Just like when you lived you're always watching over
Please keep your comforting hand resting on our shoulders
Lost
I sit and think, suicide is so inviting
Now I'm at the brink, sick and tired of all this spiting
Watching my ship sink, now the cap is slowly twisting
Like a hose kink, and the tears are slowly dripping
On an ice rink, and stopping’s not an option
A hundred pills, is what I'm counting as I pop em
And now I fade, slowly drift into an abyss
I had it made, how could I do em like this
My family was all I ever needed
Take a fall, I can finally see it
Why else am I here, but to teach you how to live
Don't follow my example because I'm the one who needs it
Someone to look up to and strive to be just like
I guess I'll have to meet him in the next life
He's now approaching, and I can't seem to turn away
This whole thing, and still I want to say
I did my best and that's all that I could give
I love you more than you all could ever know
Still somehow I let it go everything I've ever known
Like a kid that's never grown, tried but was never shown
So in this life I was a clever drone drifting aimlessly
I am never gone within you lives me I'll be forever known.
Now I'm at the brink, sick and tired of all this spiting
Watching my ship sink, now the cap is slowly twisting
Like a hose kink, and the tears are slowly dripping
On an ice rink, and stopping’s not an option
A hundred pills, is what I'm counting as I pop em
And now I fade, slowly drift into an abyss
I had it made, how could I do em like this
My family was all I ever needed
Take a fall, I can finally see it
Why else am I here, but to teach you how to live
Don't follow my example because I'm the one who needs it
Someone to look up to and strive to be just like
I guess I'll have to meet him in the next life
He's now approaching, and I can't seem to turn away
This whole thing, and still I want to say
I did my best and that's all that I could give
I love you more than you all could ever know
Still somehow I let it go everything I've ever known
Like a kid that's never grown, tried but was never shown
So in this life I was a clever drone drifting aimlessly
I am never gone within you lives me I'll be forever known.
Forbidden
Close enough to touch you with my fingertips.
I've wanted nothing as much as to feel your lips.
Meeting mine in equal attractions.
Pure bliss, there shall be no distractions.
A secret we have kept, for far too long.
Discrete, yet it is for you I long.
To share the feelings that I have never known.
Now is the time to reap the love we've sewn.
Now we choose to deny and hide it.
We both lose, we should stand by it.
It was far more easy, when we did not know.
A wanderer with no compass, where do I go
from here, now that its out in the open.
It's here, the moment, for which we both have been hoping.
A vision was laid, together we're happy.
The decision was made, and it just can't be.
With this, the title, can't even describe it.
Hear this, no longer do I want to hide it.
Do we venture now, into this bold new horizon?
The answers glare, as I gaze into your eyes then,
we are us, and that's all that matters
Sleepless no more, my thoughts are no longer scattered.
Rest easy with me, it all makes sense now.
Tests we will see, but we'll figure things out.
I've wanted nothing as much as to feel your lips.
Meeting mine in equal attractions.
Pure bliss, there shall be no distractions.
A secret we have kept, for far too long.
Discrete, yet it is for you I long.
To share the feelings that I have never known.
Now is the time to reap the love we've sewn.
Now we choose to deny and hide it.
We both lose, we should stand by it.
It was far more easy, when we did not know.
A wanderer with no compass, where do I go
from here, now that its out in the open.
It's here, the moment, for which we both have been hoping.
A vision was laid, together we're happy.
The decision was made, and it just can't be.
With this, the title, can't even describe it.
Hear this, no longer do I want to hide it.
Do we venture now, into this bold new horizon?
The answers glare, as I gaze into your eyes then,
we are us, and that's all that matters
Sleepless no more, my thoughts are no longer scattered.
Rest easy with me, it all makes sense now.
Tests we will see, but we'll figure things out.
Sleepless
No longer can I tell, the difference of day and night.
In the day I dream of you, just like I do at night.
Never am I as happy, as when I think of you by my side.
But now I know I’ve lost you, and I can't deny.
I won't just sit here, I can't just not try.
Because I know that you're the one, I have searched for all my life.
I have no sense of time, I haven't seen the sun in weeks.
For now I miss the one thing, that my heart truly seeks.
I now understand the emotion, of which all great poets speak.
But even then my love for you, is something so unique.
And now as day turns to night, and night back in to day.
I pray that somehow, I'll have your love again one day.
In the day I dream of you, just like I do at night.
Never am I as happy, as when I think of you by my side.
But now I know I’ve lost you, and I can't deny.
I won't just sit here, I can't just not try.
Because I know that you're the one, I have searched for all my life.
I have no sense of time, I haven't seen the sun in weeks.
For now I miss the one thing, that my heart truly seeks.
I now understand the emotion, of which all great poets speak.
But even then my love for you, is something so unique.
And now as day turns to night, and night back in to day.
I pray that somehow, I'll have your love again one day.
Awe
I saw the sun set today
And it’s never meant so much to me
The answer to which I’ve prayed
To stop this darkness from taking over me
I know not where it comes from or how it came to be
But I know the song that I heard sang
Was playing just for me
Shelter
There’s this yearning way deep down
That’s been unknown to me
Every time I turn around
There you’re standing faithfully
And as I’m spiraling down
You’re there to uplift me
I sit and ponder
And slowly start to understand
Echoing like thunder
A force that nothing can withstand
I know it is, it must be love
I felt it as soon as I touched your hand
Rewind
I know some how I keep making mistakes
Ruining shit though there is nothing to break
How much harder can I push just how far will you go
Watching credits run because that's all that's left of this show
Keep trying rewind but this remote must be broke
Only pause seems to work is this some kind of joke
Can't even fast forward all the way to the end
Constant turmoil is the scene that I'm in
Changed the batteries twice but it makes no difference
Wish I could erase the tape and give you back your innocence
In a sense I guess we both grew changed forever
Then your scent reminds me of the love we both knew
Strained and shredded
Maybe I'll stay paused, seems it's better this way
Well, at least then I'll never reach the end of the tape
Ruining shit though there is nothing to break
How much harder can I push just how far will you go
Watching credits run because that's all that's left of this show
Keep trying rewind but this remote must be broke
Only pause seems to work is this some kind of joke
Can't even fast forward all the way to the end
Constant turmoil is the scene that I'm in
Changed the batteries twice but it makes no difference
Wish I could erase the tape and give you back your innocence
In a sense I guess we both grew changed forever
Then your scent reminds me of the love we both knew
Strained and shredded
Maybe I'll stay paused, seems it's better this way
Well, at least then I'll never reach the end of the tape
Really good David. Read them all. Marsha
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